I Am Not Myself These Days

By: Josh Kilmer-Purcell

Josh Kilmer-Purcell lived a double life. By day, he was a successful young advertising executive. But by night, he would trade in his corporate uniform for high heels and sequins, performing in nightclubs and venues as a drag queen. In this funny, moving memoir, Kilmer-Purcell blends the tawdry and highly dramatic world of drag-queen competition with a soulful and ironic perspective on his own journey through love and life.

Told with a raw, honest voice that conveys hard truths with unflinching courage, I Am Not Myself Today follows a glittering journey through Manhattan’s dark underbelly—a surreal world where alter egos reign and subsist (barely) on dark wit and chemicals. A tragic romantic comedy, it begins with readers rooting for the survival of the author’s relationship with his penthouse-living, crack-addicted, male escort boyfriend and ends with them hoping that someone simply survives. Here truly is a brilliant tour de force by a remarkable new literary voice.